Alhamdulillah.

Oh my. I'm so close to freedom from exams. I already do feel free now, actually. Especially after what happened today. Miracles can really happen. It's like..you're so disillusioned about something and just when you least expect it, boom! in your face- a blessing. It might be a really small thing to others but I know how my situation at the hawza has been taking a toll on my health and spirit. The people at the hawza office who've been talking to me rudely, and completely not trying to understand my situation and make a few understandable amends, today, after a lot of prayers, all of a sudden were actually... nice to me!
The one who never liked me, as soon as I entered the office, said to me lovingly "Ooo, A.Z, you've come." like she was expecting me to come. For a second there I was stunned 'Why is she talking to me so nicely?' I thought. She contiued her conversation with me like that! She asked me to sign somewhere, and my work was done! I mean, I came expecting the complete opposite. I'm not even kidding. She even said what a pretty scarf i'm wearing. More shock. She also said I was a nice girl. But that was propbably Iranian tahruf. But she also then said "Yes.. i understand" nodding her head when I was explaining to her the whole mess with my additional absences from class, like she actually understood!
The other woman at the office, who's always been amazingly sweet to me since bakshe farsi, and who'd suddenly turned cold to me, turned sweet and nice to me again! She even laughed and joked with me today. Is this all the miracle of prayer? I know I sound like one of those girls advertising about how her life fully changed by buying a CD from some hot shot psychic, but really! This was something unreal today. As I left the hawza's office, I couldn't help smiling like an idiot. I was floating in air, unaware of the world around me. If somebody saw me there that time, they'd think i'm newly fallen in love or something.. They wish! The heavy heart that i've been carrying for more than a month, is now finally light.
God is great. Immensely merciful.
وَٱجْعَلْ صَلاَتَنَا بِهِ مَقبُولَةً
And through him make our prayers accepted
,وَذُنُوبَنَا بِهِ مَغْفُورَةً
And our sins be forgiven
,وَدُعَاءَنَا بِهِ مُسْتَجَاباً
And our supplications be accepted
(from Du'a Nudba)