Candy Box

It occured to me while I was eating my chocolate brownie in bed, purchased from the supermarket the previous day. It had the words Candy Box written over it in red. It was unexpectedly delicious. I turned it around to look at the price- 4,500 toumans. Not bad for something that good. We humans like to envelop ourselves with comfortable bubble wrap. Much like the plastic candy box which contained my brownie. Our mind is more precious to us than anything. There are always those comfortable thoughts whose refuge we take when we can't sleep or when presented with the infinite urge to escape reality. We will create a comfortable, unreal, magical world for ourselves to escape whisps of reality- our personal little santuary, even if we have to trade in a bit of our sanity along the way. All we have ever fought for is peace. Mental and physical. Even if it an ephemeral, passing and delusional version if it. In the end, what would you like to be known for? Your real self, or your imagined self? What would you prefer, the real world as it is, or your own little lala land? I'm not good at exchanging pleasantaries, I don't have funny or interesting stories to share, and I don't know any famous people. I am an introvert with an over active brain. I try to be more moral everyday and do things that really matter in life. I'm not into competition and think jealousy is a wasted emotion. I'm too straight forward and lack the talent to be fake. People usually tell me to "stop making that face" because I can't even physically hide the way I feel. My imagined self would be someone tall, smart and successful. Someone who speaks a string of eloquent words without stuttering even once. Someone in control of her life. Bleh. I would prefer my real self to my imagined self with a whole lot of improvements. Because no matter how I image my 'perfect' self to be, it will never be 'me.' Reality is good, at the moment. Reality can never be subsituted for. Because in the end, no matter how excrutiatingly difficult it is to accept, your future is in your hands. How you'd like to be, and what you'd like to do. You shape your life. And if you're lucky, you'll have some amazing people around you to help you do that. Goodnight and shab bekheyr :)