Life.

I might be bipolar after all. I have days of lethargy, mental stress and a general lack of enthusiam for anything. And then after that i am happpy and cheerful. It's sooo weird i want to snap out of it. I'm generally a happy person. La la la la la la la la. You know, i sing for no reason, i hop instead of walk, I laugh at appropriate places and make silly (but funny) jokes in class. That is why the low energy and low motivation phases are especially hard on me. I got a 20 on my sarf test which was unexpected and brought about a wave of positive energy. I think i must have finally got my act together. Alhamdulillah. Not that i don't have problems anymore. Because I do. My tooth hurts. The one that's supposed to be dead hurts, my wisdom tooth is making an appearance and my inner cheek skin is bruised. And another one hurts, too. I can't tell this to my parents because they are the super protective, super concerened type. That's what makes them ta-ho-tally adorable. I love them to death. They'll just worry themselves and send me money in an instant to have my treatment here. But i can't have that because 1. I only trust Indian dentists because they are the best. No arguments. And 2. Dental treatment here is ridiculously expensive. I bought a new chador, today. And saw some really nice winter wear. My friend bought the one i liked most. Inshallah, they'll have more of it coming. Oh, and it's really cold now. They just formally switched on the heaters everywhere in the khabgah. Yay! I love warm weather in my room. I love warm weather generally. It's so nice and fuzzy. And you can wear cotton clothes, then. I love cotton clothes. I don't know why life revolving around sarf is so complicated. Recently, the teacher changed our mubahise (study groups) groups and we want to change it back to the previous ones and then the new members feel bad and unwanted and like they're being kicked out. And what's up with the human kind anyway? Why do they look for pity. As if living in a constant gloomy and pitiful state gives them a high. Makes them feel like martyrs. And then there's the new room mate situation. I think most of my issues in life deal with people. Not conditions. I can adapt and adjust to conditions. But the humans the tricky ones. For example, if i don't like somebody, i don't like them. And then when i'm forced to be around them like all the time (in case of the person being a room mate) it brings about stress. I like being being happy and being around happy people and people i like. I know, you don't always get what you want. Roomies are complaining the heater is too warm. Bleh. It's awesome and amazing. Every girl deserves to sleep in light cotton pajamas and a light cotton T shirt. Especially if it's pink and purple. I like sleeping a lot these days. It's one of the things i look forward to the whole day. It's so amazing. I feel like sleeping now but alas I have sarf homework. I might have started to like sarf. Just a little bit. But it's too soon to tell. I have a lot more to rant about. Later!