Back to the hawza life.

It's weird writing my blog from my new touch screen phone. I had to finally say goodbye to my physical keypad this summer. My brother said I needed to keep up with technology. And, there weren't any of those models in the market anymore. I must admit, it's not so bad. I can. Actually type faster. Bless auto correct.

I was having one of those episodes today where I was mind boggled by all the studying and assignments that needed to be done for school that I actually started to feel fuzzy in the brain and mentally tired that I decided to leave the world to deal with itself and go to bed. At six. In the evening. Of course, I'm up and awake at eleven in the night now. Didnt think it through. I read surah waqia from my phone and now I don't know what to do. It's lights out in the room. Obviously. I chose a special room this year in the dorms of the hawza that has lights out at 9.00 p.m and everybody has to be in bed by 9.30pm (as scary as that sounds for a person like me, it has actually helped me break my late night habits and go to bed earlier and literally be awake in class in the morning.) And it's really cold outside for me to go to the study room and read something. But that's the thing. I can't get myself to study or read anyhing related to the hawza syllabus these days.

This semester is quite tough. I have mantiq (logic), which I don't like one bit, intro to philosophy (whose teacher speaks in a way I don't understand), shia shanasi (origin of and everything about the Shi'a), Aqaid ( the class I'm sleep in), Fiqhe isteftahiye (fiqh issues that are outside of the tawdhiul masael of four prominent shi'a marajae), history of hadith and nahjul balagha (which i actually enjoy and find rather useful) anddddd wait for it.... mabadi al arabiyyah! That's Nahw 3 So after my violent brush with Sarf, it's mabadi's turn to maim me. I actually like the subject. I even enjoy the subject matter and it's greater purpose and role in my Islamic studies. You could even say that I also have the aptitude for it. But the problem is that- I. Can't. Get. Myself. To. Sit. And. Studyyyy! its an old habit. I can't remember the last time I sat to study mabadi without the urge to get up and eat something interesting every 5 minutes. That's my problem. Lack of focus. And food.

School resumes in two days. We had two weeks off for Muharram. Love Iran for that. Although the roomie says holidays are the worst for studying and that I'll feel better once classes start. Not completely true as each and every one of them teachers gave us a good amount of home work and assignments for the break. I don't get them -.-

I started to read this book Sunan an Nabi by Allamah Seyyid Tabataba'i and I will tell you one thing. If you really want to know what the Prophet of Islam was like, you should read this book. Our minds and intellects are too infected by the dirty politics of the world that is committed to tarnish the real face of the Prophet Muhammad (SAW) and sadly even us as Muslims have become targets of it. This book is enough to make you fall I  live with the person and personality of the Prophet (S).

And now, I shall venture out in the cold in my cotton pjs, because I can't be bothered to change just to go to the water cooler outside because it's warm in the room and super cold outside and hence you need two separate genre of clothing for indoors and outdoors, and drink some water and pray to the good Lord to make me go to sleep.

Updating the blog felt nice.
I'll try to rant more often. I do rant a lot on Evernote. It's just too embarrassing to actually post. I want to write about my fourth Muharram in Qom. Inshallah. Till then, Khodahafez :)