This week..and life in general

This week was such an overkill. I'm glad it's almost over. Omg i'm going to die in nahw now. Which is the next class. I didn't do tamreen all week. She probably doesn't like that but isn't too strict/ or is too nice to bother us about it. Good but guilt riddening. Guilt riddening? The last two classes were like -.- had a silly test in the first one. I didn't have breakfast. In this ten minute break between classes I should probably do a bit of my homework. But i'm not doing that, am i? We have nobatkari umoomi tomorrow and the day after. It's the major spring cleaning. And I hate being masoole nobatkari. I just wanna be a lay person doing nothing in khabgah. Which isn't possible. I hate being tired. I haven't got to enjoy a weekend since long. I'm glad this week is almost over. Enjoying a weekend would mean sitting lazily with a book with ready meals served for me. But instead i've been running around places the last two weekends. I'm just not going to be nice to people anymore and agree to their requests. I bought a dress. I have mixed feelings about it coz it's not like the ones i've bought till now. I feel like i'll have verses of qur'an encompass the top panel of the walls of my house. I would like that. The way they encompass the top of the buildings of khabgah. In good calligraphy. It's beautiful. I feel like english is such an unauthentic language. Kind of devoid of emotion. But thats not true. Old classic novels of the 19th century are anything devoid of emotion and love. My newest favorite is Charlotte Bronte. Wow. I mean if you haven't read Jane Eyre. It's not like one of those "must read before you die" books. It's just literally beautiful. I'm a sucker for quality writing. Sahifa Sajjadiya by Imam Zaynul Abidin (a.s) has my undivided love for the "must read before you die" book. Seriously. I actually feel bad for the other schools of thoughts in Islam who are mahrum of this treasured book because of certain prejudice. It's a pity. You can't understand love between humans until you understand the love between God and the humans. So. I feel like everything old and archaic is good. Like old english. And farsi. What I meant earlier when I said I feel like english is such an emotionless language, I meant the english of today. Rather the way people use it. Because i've got myself used to speaking in farsi and using those beautiful farsi idioms, phrases and words which are irreplaceable by english. So. Yeah. I'm a little annoyed by some people in khabgah right now. And i'm also annoyed by the fact that I can't update my blog when I want to because the blogger app is acting up on my phone. So yeah. This week was an overkill, like I mentioned earlier. The last week was like that too. Mostly because of the load of class work and assignments and not getting around completing those really caused dissatisfaction. Also, people act really childish around these days. Yeah. I'm going to start swimming everyday starting from tomorrow. I like my classes this term alhamdulillah. I like all my teachers too. And I even like nahw lol. It's just tiring. A full timetable and a lot of books to study. Also. I need to do something. Fatimiyyeh is round the corner. So much to do. Life...is too short.