The best gift from God would be to have a soul that you notice strirring inside you. A heart that you notice beating, with every beat. And you're restless every moment, around everybody you know. It's the greater jihad being around people, struggling and fighting. And it's hurts your soul so much. And you're at peace only when you're with yourself and your God. Then when you retire, you do things for God. Only for Him. You are aware of other people but you are more aware of your own being. And you do everything to safeguard that when everybody (including yourself) tries to put it off.
Something like this...
Imam Jafar Sadiq (a) said:
"The gnostic is with the people, while his heart is with Allah. If his heart were to forget Allah for the time it takes to blink an eye, he would die of yearning for Him.
The gnostic is the trustee over the happenings of Allah, the treasury of His secrets, the repository of his lights, the proof of His mercy to creation, the instrument of His sciences and the measure of His favour and justice. He needs neither people, nor a goal, or nor this world.
He has intimacy with no one except Allah, nor any speech, gesture or breath except by Allah, with Allah, and from Allah, for he frequents the garden of His sanctity and is enriched by His subtlest favours to him. Gnosis is a root whose branch is belief."
Misbah al Shariah, Section 91
*sigh*
ReplyDeleteTo reach the state where your living is entirely for God.